Friday, July 4, 2014

Can you hate the dead?

Have you ever loved someone so much that you were willing to sacrifice everything you have?  Have you ever bent over backwards to provide for someone that was in desperate need? Have you shared those special moments of tenderness and private moments that you would never share with anyone else on the face of the earth? Only to find out in the long run that you were the only HONEST and GENUINE ONE in the relationship! Have you ever found out that the person you thought was your friend really despised you secretly? That this person taped your conversations with them and shared it with others to get them to hate you? This same person talked about you like a dog, making fun of you and belittling you behind your back! All of this you found out after they died.

How does this make you feel? Do you feel sick inside? Do you feel angry? Do you feel hurt deep down in your heart? Do you feel sad and disappointed? Or do you feel shocked and empty? How could this person smile in your face and really loathe you?

Many thoughts flood your mind as to why? Why did this person hate me? Why would this person deceive me into thinking that we had a loving friendship? Why would this person want to smear my name, to destroy my relationship with others? Why? Why? Why? and Why?

As you search your fragile heart for clues and answers, you still are puzzled! Now that the person has died there is no way you can confront him? There is no conversation. There is no closure. There is nothing BUT your broken heart almost shattered to pieces!

Can you HATE this person? Can you loathe the person that loathed you and despised you now that they are gone. Can you really harbor resentment for an individual that is non existent? Can you forgive? Will you forgive? Or will you harbor this feeling of hurt and pain until the rest of YOUR days?




1 comment:

  1. Tell me how you REALLY feel! Would you forgive and let it go?

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